oh the thoughts that run through my head this time of year.
at this moment 9 years ago we were assured that there was no way our baby wouldn't have a birthday on july 8th. (it's not! she was born at 3:57am july 9th via C-section)
the amount of feelings that get conjured up year after year. from july 7th-9th and beyond....
i am still, 9 years later, reminded of things that were happening at certain times.
things that weren't happening.
frustrations. failures. pain. worry. elation. surprise. delirium. embarrassment. a whole lot of delirium. a moment of tenderness.
i can almost guarantee i will wake to see the clock shortly before 4am.
they say you forget.
i guess things dull, sure.
but i haven't forgotten.
and each year i get completely gobsmacked with ALL OF THE FEELINGS.
and each year i keep hoping i can just not.
it is such a happy time of year! i love celebrating bean's birthday. creating (hopefully) special memories for her to actually remember. doing our traditions. making the video. don't get me wrong, it's all pretty great. and i look forward to it every year.
but with the joy it brings me so much more.
things that i wish could be different never can.
things that i worry about will never be resolved.
memories that plague me can't be forgotten.
feelings these memories evoke can't be unfelt.
and i just don't know how to get over it.
so along with the bittersweetness of my BABY getting OLD, it's definitely a bittersweet holiday as well.
maybe next year.....
Showing posts with label little bean. Show all posts
Showing posts with label little bean. Show all posts
Saturday, July 8, 2017
Wednesday, November 30, 2016
strep
Likely this will all be a giant rambling.
the bean missed school today. again. she's normally quite healthy. but, even though she missed tue-fri before thanksgiving break due to having strep throat--- she somehow got it again (?) after having been off of antibiotics a total of 2 days.
so, for those that are counting, when she goes to school on friday, that will be her 4th day of school in THREE WEEKS. and yesterday was a field trip!!
The Mr. & i are not big into running to the doctor, nor giving antibiotics unless very necessary. she's on a stronger one & we ran to the dr without giving it any more time to fester.... just in case.
and in this case it was good to stay home (and run to the dr).
almost every person i have told that she had strep, they ask if her belly hurt. (??) i didn't know (nor expect) that to be a symptom.
my only experience with strep throat happened 2 februarys ago. i seemed to have the flu. high fever, aches, chills. i was miserable; and The Mr. was gone. oh! and i also (always seem to do this) should have gone to the grocery store! for days i was good for not much. when i finally went to the dr and they tested me for both the flu & strep, only strep came back positive. the only symptom i didn't have was a sore throat!!!
[the bean still talks about that time, because with my being diagnosed with strep, The Mr. wanted me to keep my distance as much as i could (with him being gone). so she had to put herself to bed. she still remembers that and remarks how much she didn't like it. NEITHER DID I]
and now, it seems the bean manifests it differently as well. but luckily, it doesn't appear to affect her quite as badly.
in fact, when we went on her 3rd day of being home (and my 1,000th asking what bothers her) i told the dr that headache, fever & belly were the only symptoms.
she never thought to tell me that apparently "something felt stuck in her throat". which came up after they rammed the throat stick for the culture and she wouldn't get over it and said that it's because her throat hurts. WHAT???
anyways- 1 dose of antibiotic and the next morning fever, headache & belly were perfect. still couldn't go to school.
she was missing a very fun week before the holiday break.
so we have high hopes that today's vague symptoms will be curtailed with the one dose of antibiotics as well and she can get back to school on friday!
(3rd grade is hard!!! but that's a whole nother rant into itself)
the bean missed school today. again. she's normally quite healthy. but, even though she missed tue-fri before thanksgiving break due to having strep throat--- she somehow got it again (?) after having been off of antibiotics a total of 2 days.
so, for those that are counting, when she goes to school on friday, that will be her 4th day of school in THREE WEEKS. and yesterday was a field trip!!
The Mr. & i are not big into running to the doctor, nor giving antibiotics unless very necessary. she's on a stronger one & we ran to the dr without giving it any more time to fester.... just in case.
and in this case it was good to stay home (and run to the dr).
almost every person i have told that she had strep, they ask if her belly hurt. (??) i didn't know (nor expect) that to be a symptom.
my only experience with strep throat happened 2 februarys ago. i seemed to have the flu. high fever, aches, chills. i was miserable; and The Mr. was gone. oh! and i also (always seem to do this) should have gone to the grocery store! for days i was good for not much. when i finally went to the dr and they tested me for both the flu & strep, only strep came back positive. the only symptom i didn't have was a sore throat!!!
[the bean still talks about that time, because with my being diagnosed with strep, The Mr. wanted me to keep my distance as much as i could (with him being gone). so she had to put herself to bed. she still remembers that and remarks how much she didn't like it. NEITHER DID I]
and now, it seems the bean manifests it differently as well. but luckily, it doesn't appear to affect her quite as badly.
in fact, when we went on her 3rd day of being home (and my 1,000th asking what bothers her) i told the dr that headache, fever & belly were the only symptoms.
she never thought to tell me that apparently "something felt stuck in her throat". which came up after they rammed the throat stick for the culture and she wouldn't get over it and said that it's because her throat hurts. WHAT???
anyways- 1 dose of antibiotic and the next morning fever, headache & belly were perfect. still couldn't go to school.
she was missing a very fun week before the holiday break.
so we have high hopes that today's vague symptoms will be curtailed with the one dose of antibiotics as well and she can get back to school on friday!
(3rd grade is hard!!! but that's a whole nother rant into itself)
Friday, January 29, 2016
...and the no good very bad day
today was not a good day (so far). when she woke up this morning, bean said her belly hurt a little but then was fine. she does that some mornings. i try not to read too much into it (anxiety) and just know that i have a lot of mornings like that myself. she's always fine with breakfast.
but today was the first day she
that broke my ever-loving heart. i am trying not to read too much into it, because it all stemmed from a particular skirt she wanted to wear that is a size FOUR T. so yeah. it doesn't fit. (though she wore it last week??????)
it was just one of those mornings. we all have them. i get it. nothing seemed right. but i didn't like her to continue to say-cry-scream that she's not pretty.
it made me very very uncomfortable. because obviously i want to be there for her when she is feeling down. especially if it's upon herself. and i'm not quick on my feet for saying & teaching the right things. the "yes you are" a) doesn't work or b) help the idea but it's c) automatic.
she has never ever ever heard me say anything negative about myself. i accept every compliment she gives me. i negate nothing. i only slipped up once when she said that i looked cute and i was in some sweats or something. i questioned her a little too much in that i would expect that i would be cuter in nicer clothes. but i did let it go fairly quickly and thanked her.
she has developed a love of skirts & dresses. and she wears a skirt over leggings almost every chance she gets.... she felt she wasn't pretty because she couldn't.
i tried to say all the right things about clothes not mattering, etc. but she didn't want to hear it. she even said her "special" wavy hair today wasn't pretty b/c it was supposed to go with the skirt.
a bad day. i get it. just like Alexander.
i hate those days.
but she really IS so very pretty!!!
(even when she just wakes up)
Tuesday, January 5, 2016
loving
but wait, there's more!
in continuing to document what i can't "brag" about...
the bean is super loving.
she writes me notes and loves my snuggles.
if i'm not feeling well, she'll go find an appropriate stuffed animal friend to give me. sometimes it's even Flopsy!!
she finds heart things in everything- from food to leaves to rocks. if she can collect them she does and always gives them to me.
she is at an age, apparently, where she is looking outside of herself and becoming generous/sensitive to issues like cancer & poverty. [ a lot of my friends are reporting this same thing at this time... it's so cool!]
i hear "you're the best mommy in the world" a ton.
i know of course you all can relate.
and i'm so thankful for that; otherwise the world would be even worse if our kids weren't capable of love and generosity.
but about a month or so ago, she took it just one step further.
we were snuggling and she said again "mommy, you're the best mommy in the entire world" of course i thanked her and then she said that she is so glad i'm her mommy because if she had a different one, she would feel bad for not loving her as much because i'm already the best.
woah.
in continuing to document what i can't "brag" about...
the bean is super loving.
she writes me notes and loves my snuggles.
if i'm not feeling well, she'll go find an appropriate stuffed animal friend to give me. sometimes it's even Flopsy!!
she finds heart things in everything- from food to leaves to rocks. if she can collect them she does and always gives them to me.
she is at an age, apparently, where she is looking outside of herself and becoming generous/sensitive to issues like cancer & poverty. [ a lot of my friends are reporting this same thing at this time... it's so cool!]
i hear "you're the best mommy in the world" a ton.
i know of course you all can relate.
and i'm so thankful for that; otherwise the world would be even worse if our kids weren't capable of love and generosity.
but about a month or so ago, she took it just one step further.
we were snuggling and she said again "mommy, you're the best mommy in the entire world" of course i thanked her and then she said that she is so glad i'm her mommy because if she had a different one, she would feel bad for not loving her as much because i'm already the best.
woah.
Sunday, January 3, 2016
so anyway
for whatever reason, i have let all blogging go, apparently.
and i know that it's highly unlikely anyone will even see this post now. but that is fine because i wanted to document it so i wouldn't forget all about it.
it's good for me to remind myself of things.
this is not something i can even really share out loud with my friends because it comes off as way too braggy. it is not intended to be that way at all; but i need to just remember how awesome my daughter is!
just like all kids- she is beautiful. she is smart. she is hilarious. she is loving.
and i need to remember in particular just how much she is all of these things.
all of my friends love her to death and tell me how neat she is. this wouldn't come as any big shock to anyone who knows her.
one thing i can't share out loud is what a remarkable writer she is becoming. at the beginning of the school year, i learned that she is one of only 6 in all of 2nd grade who was as prolific of a writer as they want her to be by the END of 2nd grade. they determined this based on a piece given to them in august. they counted word length and vocabulary use/sentence structure... all that teacher-y stuff.
i saw the sample and wasn't terribly impressed; but at the same time was impressed that THEY were impressed.
well apparently it continued to bloom because she came home with a graded piece the other day that knocked my socks off. she got a perfect score on it. it was a piece where she had to either pretend to be a settler or a native american who came to Mary Musgrove's trading post. she had to use some words from a word bank- which i imagine helped direct the kids into a thought.
for those not familiar with teacher-y things; this already seems to be a difficult assignment. it would be quite difficult to pretend to be in a historical time and write in that point of view. let alone needing to be accurate in facts.
the bean took to this assignment and went with it. completely. i began reading it and was all "what? that didn't happen" because it started out with the words "My dad killed a deer." then i kept reading and thought surely she was copying something so they could understand about this time. then i got to where it read "a breeze was cool on my face" and "the line was short so I didn't have to wait long." and i was flabbergasted. the actual assignment was stapled behind all this; so it was awesome to read first then see.
i asked her which words on the word bank she used (that was in part of the grading) and they were simple words like "trade" and "Mary Musgrove"
i have never seen her write like that. i have never seen any of my students write like that.
with the ability to "transport" the reader.
it was awesome.
she is awesome!
and i know that it's highly unlikely anyone will even see this post now. but that is fine because i wanted to document it so i wouldn't forget all about it.
it's good for me to remind myself of things.
this is not something i can even really share out loud with my friends because it comes off as way too braggy. it is not intended to be that way at all; but i need to just remember how awesome my daughter is!
just like all kids- she is beautiful. she is smart. she is hilarious. she is loving.
and i need to remember in particular just how much she is all of these things.
all of my friends love her to death and tell me how neat she is. this wouldn't come as any big shock to anyone who knows her.
one thing i can't share out loud is what a remarkable writer she is becoming. at the beginning of the school year, i learned that she is one of only 6 in all of 2nd grade who was as prolific of a writer as they want her to be by the END of 2nd grade. they determined this based on a piece given to them in august. they counted word length and vocabulary use/sentence structure... all that teacher-y stuff.
i saw the sample and wasn't terribly impressed; but at the same time was impressed that THEY were impressed.
well apparently it continued to bloom because she came home with a graded piece the other day that knocked my socks off. she got a perfect score on it. it was a piece where she had to either pretend to be a settler or a native american who came to Mary Musgrove's trading post. she had to use some words from a word bank- which i imagine helped direct the kids into a thought.
for those not familiar with teacher-y things; this already seems to be a difficult assignment. it would be quite difficult to pretend to be in a historical time and write in that point of view. let alone needing to be accurate in facts.
the bean took to this assignment and went with it. completely. i began reading it and was all "what? that didn't happen" because it started out with the words "My dad killed a deer." then i kept reading and thought surely she was copying something so they could understand about this time. then i got to where it read "a breeze was cool on my face" and "the line was short so I didn't have to wait long." and i was flabbergasted. the actual assignment was stapled behind all this; so it was awesome to read first then see.
i asked her which words on the word bank she used (that was in part of the grading) and they were simple words like "trade" and "Mary Musgrove"
i have never seen her write like that. i have never seen any of my students write like that.
with the ability to "transport" the reader.
it was awesome.
she is awesome!
Monday, February 23, 2015
daily grateful
i would like to try to get back into this- even if it's short and uncomprehensible....
i am in fear that my motivation is still not where it needs to be; maybe i try this umpteenth medication- i haven't yet just because.
i want to focus on so many things- and that's usually my problem.
maybe if i start kicking my ass more. like i used to.
so for now i'm hoping to start a daily grateful....
there is SO much. and i really am aware of much of it. but hopefully if i write something down, that can be my positive.
this one came to me yesterday:
while i was napping (:
it came with a piece of her valentine's candy and a big smile.
i thought the note was sweet enough. i love those 3 little smileys she drew! ha!!
and sorry to burst all y'all's bubbles that i am the best mommy. she tells me this constantly!!
maybe one day i'll believe her (:
i am in fear that my motivation is still not where it needs to be; maybe i try this umpteenth medication- i haven't yet just because.
i want to focus on so many things- and that's usually my problem.
maybe if i start kicking my ass more. like i used to.
so for now i'm hoping to start a daily grateful....
there is SO much. and i really am aware of much of it. but hopefully if i write something down, that can be my positive.
this one came to me yesterday:
while i was napping (:
it came with a piece of her valentine's candy and a big smile.
i thought the note was sweet enough. i love those 3 little smileys she drew! ha!!
and sorry to burst all y'all's bubbles that i am the best mommy. she tells me this constantly!!
maybe one day i'll believe her (:
Saturday, September 6, 2014
surreality
a few surreal things have occurred recently. in no particular order of importance:
The Mr. will miss our 12th wedding anniversary because he is exactly where he was a year ago when he missed our 11th anniversary. [ obviously, no, i didn't come with.]i am constantly being challenged with the concept of the time change. it's fun to share with The Bean, too. we get a kick out of knowing that we wake up when he goes to sleep.
However, time really does seem warped to know that he sent me an anniversary card from the airport when he left. it came to me as he landed.
it makes sense since his travel day was pretty much 24hrs, but when you put it that way, it just felt pretty surreal.
The Mr. will miss our 12th wedding anniversary because he is exactly where he was a year ago when he missed our 11th anniversary. [ obviously, no, i didn't come with.]i am constantly being challenged with the concept of the time change. it's fun to share with The Bean, too. we get a kick out of knowing that we wake up when he goes to sleep.
However, time really does seem warped to know that he sent me an anniversary card from the airport when he left. it came to me as he landed.
it makes sense since his travel day was pretty much 24hrs, but when you put it that way, it just felt pretty surreal.
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this morning, The Bean asked me if we ever went to Callaway Gardens. I told her we went when she was a baby. so after breakfast, i pulled up her blog & showed her a few of the pix I had posted. which led to a couple of other posts. which led to me just randomizing my blog... she was pretty captivated and she captivated me by reading my words back to me.
that's surreal enough- but another great thing- she gets my humor!
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i have been having lots of deep dreams again, lately. this is nothing new to me. whether it is brought about because of (yet another) medication i really can't tell. what i do know is these are surreal, yes, but not as evil or dark or scary as some of mine can be (medicated or not)
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i am currently typing this while watching the Ohio State, Virginia Tech game. surreal that i care a damn about football that's not even Clemson. surreal that VT is up by 2 TD's after OSU missed not one but 2 field goal attempts. the fact that I even know that is surreal is surreal in itself.
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unfortunately there is some surreal shit going on in my family that is not at all what would be expected (even from my crazy family). it's life-changing. and not the good kind.
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The Bean has had more bouts of odd coincidences. (The Mr. calls them coincidences. i'm not sure how to explain them).
she pretended some squirrels were named Coleman and Lillianna. Two names that I know in my life; neither of which are amazingly important- but those are not names we know of in her little 6 year old world. Neither one of them are particularly common. And who names squirrels anyway??
Also surreal? she said to me that 90 is old and she doesn't want to be old. She only wants to be 40. anyone who knows me knows that is amazing. and what 6 year old thinks like that. At breakfast. when we were not talking about birthdays or ages or old or anything that could have led her to this statement.
and lastly? she spoke in such a way that I seriously had to consider if something is ESP if your own mind is blank. I will be posting that story on her blog next.....
Wednesday, June 11, 2014
from the mouth
monday morning, we were getting ready for Girl Scout (day) Camp.
"did you know daddy put lotion on my bumps last night?
i have 2 bumps. but i can't show you one, because it's deleted."
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over Spring Break, while at the aquarium:
she was looking at the animal called the Mud Skipper & asked me to read about it. as i read all the information on the card, she said "they should've said AND IT'S GROSS"
same aquarium.
she read the sign "school of fish", saw a large fish swim up and said "that's the principal!"
"did you know daddy put lotion on my bumps last night?
i have 2 bumps. but i can't show you one, because it's deleted."
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over Spring Break, while at the aquarium:
she was looking at the animal called the Mud Skipper & asked me to read about it. as i read all the information on the card, she said "they should've said AND IT'S GROSS"
same aquarium.
she read the sign "school of fish", saw a large fish swim up and said "that's the principal!"
Thursday, April 24, 2014
ramblings
oh so much mulling in my mind......
....we had a completely marvelous spring break! TN was awesome. everyone enjoyed each other for the most part. except for watching a very distressing/realistic depiction of *something* in season 3 of Downton Abbey & a couple of moments from the bean, it was perfect!
....i can't wait for the next state! we (i) haven't planned where we're going this summer yet. but we'll definitely do something. i have a map in our bonus room that i'm coloring in as we go. unfortunately, it's not working out as i planned. i had hoped to go see my friend that moved to AR this past summer. when i saw where she was, i see she's on the edge so that woulda given us an opportunity to see 3 states! however, sadly we just aren't friends anymore. once she left she left. it breaks my heart but i can't constantly reach out only to be left hanging. she warned me she's like that. i just didn't think she'd be like that with me.
.... i just dropped the bean off at school (!!!) and i had that typical cliche moment where she looked back at me. and yeah. cliche abound. that shit really does get to you.
....The Mr. & i watched the NCAA basketball championship.... ie "pick'ems" we had a wager on it. it was the most exciting set of games we've seen probably ever. it was fun! and as down to the wire most of those games were, our brackets were too and The Mr. won by 2pts. now i have to watch an episode of the ever stupid "It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia". used to watch that show with him; then i realized i'm not a 10 year old boy.
...have intended to write posts on Dr. New Guy and meds and all.... the short of it is i am off all meds right now (and have been for about 2 months).
he upped what was working for me. but that wasn't working for me. so he took me off & said take a break for about a month with intention of starting #4 (!!). i could also go back to #3 first dose if i wanted.
i don't know what i want.
i was dealing with some other major issues & feel i handled it well- unmedicated. so now i don't know i don't know i don't know.
...our winter is over- though every time i go to weather.com i see the red warning headline that SOMEONE out there is expecting 12" snow again. we had 2 "snows", along with those "cold" days.
the day before Easter was cloudy, dark, rainy & cold. i couldn't believe it was actually Easter. however, wake up sunday and it was our typical spring lovely.
...& the night before Easter, The Mr. & i went to see Lion King at the Fox.
i'm sad to say that it wasn't as astoundingly wonderful as i'd been told/hoped/thought.
yes it was a good night out. yes the costumes were innovative. but, i don't know. it was just not the oomph we had hoped for.
same with Book of Mormon.
[those 2 shows alone are what drove us to buy season tickets]
to be fair, Lion King isn't my all-time-fave anyway. i have probably only seen it 2ce; and not in ages.
...however we decided we will bring the bean to The Little Mermaid on her birthday this year (great timing!) and that is one of my fave disney shows. i hope this one will be better!
...it's been a year since i got to go to Utah and boy am i frustrated. i have instilled a pact w/ my 2 friends to spur us all on. and for some reason it's just not working for me. even on my really really good days i'm not moving the scale (in the right direction) very much. zaps my motivation for sure. along with that month i was dealing with all the other stuff. i just can't focus.
really wish i could get my motivation back (meds??) because THIS is as much vacation as i'm gonna have this year.... 6 hours of school each day. and that is quickly winding down.
okay- i guess i should be done rambling for now. hope to be back with a proper post soon.
....we had a completely marvelous spring break! TN was awesome. everyone enjoyed each other for the most part. except for watching a very distressing/realistic depiction of *something* in season 3 of Downton Abbey & a couple of moments from the bean, it was perfect!
....i can't wait for the next state! we (i) haven't planned where we're going this summer yet. but we'll definitely do something. i have a map in our bonus room that i'm coloring in as we go. unfortunately, it's not working out as i planned. i had hoped to go see my friend that moved to AR this past summer. when i saw where she was, i see she's on the edge so that woulda given us an opportunity to see 3 states! however, sadly we just aren't friends anymore. once she left she left. it breaks my heart but i can't constantly reach out only to be left hanging. she warned me she's like that. i just didn't think she'd be like that with me.
.... i just dropped the bean off at school (!!!) and i had that typical cliche moment where she looked back at me. and yeah. cliche abound. that shit really does get to you.
....The Mr. & i watched the NCAA basketball championship.... ie "pick'ems" we had a wager on it. it was the most exciting set of games we've seen probably ever. it was fun! and as down to the wire most of those games were, our brackets were too and The Mr. won by 2pts. now i have to watch an episode of the ever stupid "It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia". used to watch that show with him; then i realized i'm not a 10 year old boy.
...have intended to write posts on Dr. New Guy and meds and all.... the short of it is i am off all meds right now (and have been for about 2 months).
he upped what was working for me. but that wasn't working for me. so he took me off & said take a break for about a month with intention of starting #4 (!!). i could also go back to #3 first dose if i wanted.
i don't know what i want.
i was dealing with some other major issues & feel i handled it well- unmedicated. so now i don't know i don't know i don't know.
...our winter is over- though every time i go to weather.com i see the red warning headline that SOMEONE out there is expecting 12" snow again. we had 2 "snows", along with those "cold" days.
the day before Easter was cloudy, dark, rainy & cold. i couldn't believe it was actually Easter. however, wake up sunday and it was our typical spring lovely.
...& the night before Easter, The Mr. & i went to see Lion King at the Fox.
i'm sad to say that it wasn't as astoundingly wonderful as i'd been told/hoped/thought.
yes it was a good night out. yes the costumes were innovative. but, i don't know. it was just not the oomph we had hoped for.
same with Book of Mormon.
[those 2 shows alone are what drove us to buy season tickets]
to be fair, Lion King isn't my all-time-fave anyway. i have probably only seen it 2ce; and not in ages.
...however we decided we will bring the bean to The Little Mermaid on her birthday this year (great timing!) and that is one of my fave disney shows. i hope this one will be better!
...it's been a year since i got to go to Utah and boy am i frustrated. i have instilled a pact w/ my 2 friends to spur us all on. and for some reason it's just not working for me. even on my really really good days i'm not moving the scale (in the right direction) very much. zaps my motivation for sure. along with that month i was dealing with all the other stuff. i just can't focus.
really wish i could get my motivation back (meds??) because THIS is as much vacation as i'm gonna have this year.... 6 hours of school each day. and that is quickly winding down.
okay- i guess i should be done rambling for now. hope to be back with a proper post soon.
Monday, January 6, 2014
intentions
ah yes.
intentions are grand, aren't they.
i've been waiting til' the bean goes back to school so i can blog a little bit about the living room update, or how i feel about Dr. New Guy. or how the holidays were. or just about anything...
guess what? they canceled school. for today AND tomorrow. due to cold weather.
you northerners up there just got a little more fodder for jokes, didn't you?
this happened to me once before when i was a teacher. the busstop forecast was unheard of around these parts (single digit temps and negative {single digit} windchills).
it is happening again. for the next 2 days we will have a high of 27.
i know that's considered Autumn for some of you.
i *think* what may have happened is they were intending for it to "snow" in the middle of the night.... which (of course) did not happen. but to give everyone ample warning about closures went ahead and called off the two days. tomorrow is supposed to be even colder than today. with 6am temps at 9 degrees/ -3 chill.
i will say that i am at least glad it didn't end up snowing. though i wasn't really thinking it would actually amount to anything you could play in- i'm glad it did stay away. b/c the bean- who was sick much of the last week of school- missed the last day of school and apparently left her great winter/snow coat in the classroom.
that would have just been ironic.
intentions are grand, aren't they.
i've been waiting til' the bean goes back to school so i can blog a little bit about the living room update, or how i feel about Dr. New Guy. or how the holidays were. or just about anything...
guess what? they canceled school. for today AND tomorrow. due to cold weather.
you northerners up there just got a little more fodder for jokes, didn't you?
this happened to me once before when i was a teacher. the busstop forecast was unheard of around these parts (single digit temps and negative {single digit} windchills).
it is happening again. for the next 2 days we will have a high of 27.
i know that's considered Autumn for some of you.
i *think* what may have happened is they were intending for it to "snow" in the middle of the night.... which (of course) did not happen. but to give everyone ample warning about closures went ahead and called off the two days. tomorrow is supposed to be even colder than today. with 6am temps at 9 degrees/ -3 chill.
i will say that i am at least glad it didn't end up snowing. though i wasn't really thinking it would actually amount to anything you could play in- i'm glad it did stay away. b/c the bean- who was sick much of the last week of school- missed the last day of school and apparently left her great winter/snow coat in the classroom.
that would have just been ironic.
Tuesday, December 24, 2013
tis the season
so as much as i've wanted to un-neglect my blog, it's been a little busy these past few days/weeks with christmas prep.
shopping was done, volunteering at the school, room-momming, the bean was in her holiday recital. she got sick. The Mr. is battling "this little girl cold", the in-laws are here (again; as they came for the recital just last week) & i've been hostessing, baking, eating, baking, The Mr. has been cleaning! and i've been baking. intermixed with some game-playing with my little brother (in-law).
overall, things are good.
nothing more than the usual holiday stress (fun kind) right now; with the sick stress rolled in. that's made things slightly less pleasant; but there's not a pill i can take for that.
i'm really excited to see the bean's face when she sees what Santa brought her. i'm looking forward tostealing my F-I-L's ipad for candy crushing trying to relax in between the rest of the cooking prep & holiday fun. and, because the wonderful people in movie-land have been so kind enough to keep Frozen on the big screen right now, we *may* re-instate The Mr.'s family tradition of going to a movie on xmas! it will be the bean's first experience in a real movie theater. that will be fun!
okay. back to my breakfast prep.
i hope your holidays are enjoyable & safe!
see you next year!!
(The Mr. & i are going to have a small R&R time right after the holiday, too! so much to look forward to!)
shopping was done, volunteering at the school, room-momming, the bean was in her holiday recital. she got sick. The Mr. is battling "this little girl cold", the in-laws are here (again; as they came for the recital just last week) & i've been hostessing, baking, eating, baking, The Mr. has been cleaning! and i've been baking. intermixed with some game-playing with my little brother (in-law).
overall, things are good.
nothing more than the usual holiday stress (fun kind) right now; with the sick stress rolled in. that's made things slightly less pleasant; but there's not a pill i can take for that.
i'm really excited to see the bean's face when she sees what Santa brought her. i'm looking forward to
okay. back to my breakfast prep.
i hope your holidays are enjoyable & safe!
see you next year!!
(The Mr. & i are going to have a small R&R time right after the holiday, too! so much to look forward to!)
Monday, August 12, 2013
now what?
that five year old started kindergarten today.
now what do i do with the next 6 hours???
guess i should stock up on some more bonbons.
guess i should stock up on some more bonbons.
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
five!!
unbelievable that it's come to this:
oh happy birthday, little bean!
five already.
astonishing, really.
five already.
astonishing, really.
Monday, July 9, 2012
four!
happy birthday to our little girl.
i can't believe you are four already!
i love you, little bean.
i can't believe you are four already!
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
lying like a teenager
yesterday, while on a playdate, littlegirl lied to me.
kids lie.
i know.
they lie to avoid being in trouble. they lie b/c they believe their fantasy world to be true. sometimes they lie to see how it works.
BUT i had no idea that a ~4 year old would know how (or even think to) lie on behalf of someone else. without prompting yesterday, she lied to me to keep the other girl out of trouble. and she was pretty adamant. even vouched the other girl's story.
we knew both the girls were lying, and finally the other kid admitted to her lie.
ohmigod- i'm not sure i'm gonna be able to handle her later if she's already acting like a teenager now! i've been joking for years (yes, years) that she thinks she's a teenager b/c she is not at all into trying to please The Mr. or me. and she learned way too early how to answer the question "how was your day?" with a "not the stuff that i did" [which was her cute way of saying, i don't wanna talk about it] which grew into "it's a surprise." or "i will tell you after..." or the ever favorite "i don't remember".
don't remember? this kid has proved many a time she has the memory of an elephant.
nobody teach her the eye roll. i'm really not in the mood for the dramatics quite yet!
kids lie.
i know.
they lie to avoid being in trouble. they lie b/c they believe their fantasy world to be true. sometimes they lie to see how it works.
BUT i had no idea that a ~4 year old would know how (or even think to) lie on behalf of someone else. without prompting yesterday, she lied to me to keep the other girl out of trouble. and she was pretty adamant. even vouched the other girl's story.
we knew both the girls were lying, and finally the other kid admitted to her lie.
ohmigod- i'm not sure i'm gonna be able to handle her later if she's already acting like a teenager now! i've been joking for years (yes, years) that she thinks she's a teenager b/c she is not at all into trying to please The Mr. or me. and she learned way too early how to answer the question "how was your day?" with a "not the stuff that i did" [which was her cute way of saying, i don't wanna talk about it] which grew into "it's a surprise." or "i will tell you after..." or the ever favorite "i don't remember".
don't remember? this kid has proved many a time she has the memory of an elephant.
nobody teach her the eye roll. i'm really not in the mood for the dramatics quite yet!
Thursday, September 1, 2011
handling some chaos
i've been lax in posting, because the past couple of weeks have been busy.
we planned, packed for, and took a vacation (sans Bean!) and this week was spent getting back into routines & other stuff.
so it dawned on me over the course of the last week or so that i needed to update things.
since i've last posted, i'd been busy organizing the trip which included leaving the bean in a different state with my sister who doesn't have many kid-sized things. (turns out, she didn't use much of the toys or any of the food items i brought. the kitchen items, i think were appreciated)
we also had our friends over for grilling out & swimming. that night, The Mr. burned his fingertips on the grilled potato foil pouch. (OUCH. poor guy!)
meanwhile, he had also played soccer the tuesday before (the day, actually, that i posted) and got elbowed pretty good in the back. i think he casually mentioned this to me a few days later on thursday.
saturday (the day we had company) he decided to run most of his normal 6+mile route. except, this time, his back hurt him greatly, so he walked home.
didn't make a big deal of it (of course!) and proceeded to do ALL of the yardwork, including weeding & cutting the bushes (thus lots of bending)
... y'all, i had no idea he was going that far with the yard work, i swear!
sunday he ran again (with the burned fingers) & came home and said his back was super sore. all day long. yet, he insisted on playing with the bean in the pool..... holding her the whole time. in the deep end. swimming, holding her, & letting her balance by holding on to the diving board.
insisted!
sunday night he even got out of bed to get the bean when she needed to go potty. i was completely unaware, and quite annoyed when i found out later that i was not called upon to help.
in any case, 4:30 am rolls around and The Mr. (poor guy!) is in complete and utter pain. i'd never seen him like that before! not even when he got hit while riding his bike, and he has the "shark bite" gash in his leg to show for it.
i asked if he would please PLEASE go to a doctor afterall! he (finally) conceded. so i asked if we should go now. of course, his reply was "no"
that reply quickly changed not 10 minutes later when he had no choice.
i guess he preferred to go to the ER in style via a 911 call! we joke about it now, but no. that indeed was not funny- when he passed out! was the most horrendous 45 seconds of my life. (and possibly his?) and that includes one hellish labor story!
[i'd like to interrupt this drama by remarking how AMAZING amazing our 3yo little girl is! the girl who used to wake up when The Mr. walked upstairs slept through all of the yelling (pain), screaming (fear), panicked phone call, several trips downstairs to gather items, 5 big men coming upstairs in less-than-quiet fashion (including taking a cellphone call outside of her bedroom door!), walking The Mr. down & strapping him to a loud jostly gurney!!]
ok. so i guess i didn't interrupt the drama, but just spilled it all to you.
oh, and this all occured the day before taking our much anticipated, long awaited vacation.
golden!
so monday was spent shuttling back and forth & just general dealing with all that comes from a 911 call at 5am. we debated about the vacation, and ultimately decided to go.
sure, it changed some of our plans (like bike rides & hiking), but it would still be a vacation, which is the important part of the idea!
the vacation was not without it's own mini-chaos. we spent the first 1/2 worried about the condition of The Mr.'s back pain & the second 1/2 wondering about getting home. our flight was via JFK in NYC, which even though we had the foresight to cut our vacay a little short & go on an earlier flight, obv, that all changed when NYC shut down a day early.
i am so terribly sorry for the devastation that hurricane Irene caused in NC & New England! it is truly unbelievable to see all the flooding in VT & hear about all the power outages along the eastern seabord.
our vacation was actually spent in VT & we spent one night in Montreal. i kept the whole thing in stride, knowing that THIS problem wasn't really all that bad considering we weren't in the eye of the hurricane! (not yet anyway)
as we all know, the storm lessened after it gave NC a big beating. (my niece's college and apartment was pretty torn up in the whole event, though i haven't heard about all the actual damage). i figured if we can't get out Til Tuesday (hush hush) then we'd just have bonus vacation, and i would worry about being huddled scared in a hotel basement when it comes barreling to VT later.
of course, that's not how things ended up. once NYC shut down, we really figured that no, we couldn't just stay and hang out in a storm situation for extra days just for "fun". so we dealt with a lot of old PRTM majors trying to take us tourists back home. some were more helpful/understanding than others. it took both The Mr. & my bright ideas combined to ultimately decide that from montreal we were going to leave our luggage at the now over-booked hotel, drive back to VT to return our rental car (thanks a lot, "Thrafty"!), take their shuttle to the airport, hang out for a few hours, buy (what appeared to be the very last) 2 tickets on greyhound and go immediately BACK to canada to walk to get our luggage & take a taxi to the (incredibly awesome) marriott attached to the airport so we could fly out of montreal the next morning.
hindsight is great. because 3 of the 3 alternative flights we had booked in the course of all this were either canceled or delayed 3+ hours.
i kinda sound like a douche whining about this, when i know many people were actually affected by the hurricane! i know it was frustrating, but i'm very thankful that it was never horrifying. (not like the 45 seconds before all the vacation began!)
so, i guess my meds are holding up. i'm not sure what it would've changed if i hadn't been on them. but we dealt with what the most chaotic/dramatic week we'd experienced thusfar. but even in my most depressive days, i usually can keep things in perspective. i always recognize that many many people have things far worse off! & i can usually find something to be thankful about regarding my situation(s).
it always makes me feel so GD selfish for being "depressed" at all.
we planned, packed for, and took a vacation (sans Bean!) and this week was spent getting back into routines & other stuff.
so it dawned on me over the course of the last week or so that i needed to update things.
since i've last posted, i'd been busy organizing the trip which included leaving the bean in a different state with my sister who doesn't have many kid-sized things. (turns out, she didn't use much of the toys or any of the food items i brought. the kitchen items, i think were appreciated)
we also had our friends over for grilling out & swimming. that night, The Mr. burned his fingertips on the grilled potato foil pouch. (OUCH. poor guy!)
meanwhile, he had also played soccer the tuesday before (the day, actually, that i posted) and got elbowed pretty good in the back. i think he casually mentioned this to me a few days later on thursday.
saturday (the day we had company) he decided to run most of his normal 6+mile route. except, this time, his back hurt him greatly, so he walked home.
didn't make a big deal of it (of course!) and proceeded to do ALL of the yardwork, including weeding & cutting the bushes (thus lots of bending)
... y'all, i had no idea he was going that far with the yard work, i swear!
sunday he ran again (with the burned fingers) & came home and said his back was super sore. all day long. yet, he insisted on playing with the bean in the pool..... holding her the whole time. in the deep end. swimming, holding her, & letting her balance by holding on to the diving board.
insisted!
sunday night he even got out of bed to get the bean when she needed to go potty. i was completely unaware, and quite annoyed when i found out later that i was not called upon to help.
in any case, 4:30 am rolls around and The Mr. (poor guy!) is in complete and utter pain. i'd never seen him like that before! not even when he got hit while riding his bike, and he has the "shark bite" gash in his leg to show for it.
i asked if he would please PLEASE go to a doctor afterall! he (finally) conceded. so i asked if we should go now. of course, his reply was "no"
that reply quickly changed not 10 minutes later when he had no choice.
i guess he preferred to go to the ER in style via a 911 call! we joke about it now, but no. that indeed was not funny- when he passed out! was the most horrendous 45 seconds of my life. (and possibly his?) and that includes one hellish labor story!
[i'd like to interrupt this drama by remarking how AMAZING amazing our 3yo little girl is! the girl who used to wake up when The Mr. walked upstairs slept through all of the yelling (pain), screaming (fear), panicked phone call, several trips downstairs to gather items, 5 big men coming upstairs in less-than-quiet fashion (including taking a cellphone call outside of her bedroom door!), walking The Mr. down & strapping him to a loud jostly gurney!!]
ok. so i guess i didn't interrupt the drama, but just spilled it all to you.
oh, and this all occured the day before taking our much anticipated, long awaited vacation.
golden!
so monday was spent shuttling back and forth & just general dealing with all that comes from a 911 call at 5am. we debated about the vacation, and ultimately decided to go.
sure, it changed some of our plans (like bike rides & hiking), but it would still be a vacation, which is the important part of the idea!
the vacation was not without it's own mini-chaos. we spent the first 1/2 worried about the condition of The Mr.'s back pain & the second 1/2 wondering about getting home. our flight was via JFK in NYC, which even though we had the foresight to cut our vacay a little short & go on an earlier flight, obv, that all changed when NYC shut down a day early.
i am so terribly sorry for the devastation that hurricane Irene caused in NC & New England! it is truly unbelievable to see all the flooding in VT & hear about all the power outages along the eastern seabord.
our vacation was actually spent in VT & we spent one night in Montreal. i kept the whole thing in stride, knowing that THIS problem wasn't really all that bad considering we weren't in the eye of the hurricane! (not yet anyway)
as we all know, the storm lessened after it gave NC a big beating. (my niece's college and apartment was pretty torn up in the whole event, though i haven't heard about all the actual damage). i figured if we can't get out Til Tuesday (hush hush) then we'd just have bonus vacation, and i would worry about being huddled scared in a hotel basement when it comes barreling to VT later.
of course, that's not how things ended up. once NYC shut down, we really figured that no, we couldn't just stay and hang out in a storm situation for extra days just for "fun". so we dealt with a lot of old PRTM majors trying to take us tourists back home. some were more helpful/understanding than others. it took both The Mr. & my bright ideas combined to ultimately decide that from montreal we were going to leave our luggage at the now over-booked hotel, drive back to VT to return our rental car (thanks a lot, "Thrafty"!), take their shuttle to the airport, hang out for a few hours, buy (what appeared to be the very last) 2 tickets on greyhound and go immediately BACK to canada to walk to get our luggage & take a taxi to the (incredibly awesome) marriott attached to the airport so we could fly out of montreal the next morning.
hindsight is great. because 3 of the 3 alternative flights we had booked in the course of all this were either canceled or delayed 3+ hours.
i kinda sound like a douche whining about this, when i know many people were actually affected by the hurricane! i know it was frustrating, but i'm very thankful that it was never horrifying. (not like the 45 seconds before all the vacation began!)
so, i guess my meds are holding up. i'm not sure what it would've changed if i hadn't been on them. but we dealt with what the most chaotic/dramatic week we'd experienced thusfar. but even in my most depressive days, i usually can keep things in perspective. i always recognize that many many people have things far worse off! & i can usually find something to be thankful about regarding my situation(s).
it always makes me feel so GD selfish for being "depressed" at all.
Saturday, July 23, 2011
3 weeks plus
so this past week was/is hard for me.
probably a lot of factors were involved, and the crux of it is that i just didn't feel OK just because of the medicine. in fact, in some ways, it was more depressing--- just because i feel like i'm trying EVERYTHING. (even meds, which i did not want to go to!)
it doesn't help that i had another week alone. after having The Mr. home for about 2 months with no travel, i couldn't help but get spoiled. and begin my [serious] quest for getting better. i began eating better, exercising, etc....
having him gone just throws me into a different kind of loop.
plus not having any break at all (since it's summer, i don't get my tuesday mornings).
in fact, i went to lunch today b/c The Mr. & i were tired of her whining incessantly just because we have the audacity to- um, parent- her! so i went alone. and that was the first hour i'd had to myself in three weeks. unless you count the hour when everyone slept before her birthday party. but since i was cooking & preparing..... no, i don't count that!
let's add to the fact that with The Mr. traveling, and my 2 friends having different obligations these past few weeks, has left me NO time to go to therapy.
i guess i did all this stuff while i had a lot of opportunity to, and then BAMMO! it all ended pretty abruptly.
i have grand plans for September, and am very much looking forward to my not one, but three mornings a week! and that's always aided in my depression. still, my trips & plans aren't here yet. so i manage.
so, in a nutshell, is Celexa working for me? how in the hell am i really supposed to tell?
overall, my stats lately could be compiled as:
insomnia- maybe a 3. i've been waking early or in the middle of the night (sometimes without reason) & that's been a challenge for me going back to sleep in a timely manner since the bean came along.
dry mouth- comes & goes. some days it's a 1. right at this moment it's a 4. so maybe i'll say 3
libido- has been a moot point, so it's hard to determine. i guess it's appropriately here (enough) when it needs to be. not sure if The Mr. would complain...
nausea- 1
drowsiness- gosh, this one's hard, too. it also comes and goes. but i will say it's the one that i notice more often when it's the afternoon and i just need a nap. but i dunno- would you feel that way if you had a whiny 3year old still prone to tantrums that won't nap herself? in any case, i guess i'll give this one a 3.5
it seems that most of the time if i'm involved with doing something, i can be just fine. it's when the end of rest time comes that i feel it the most. maybe it's a little longing on my part. (ha)
from what my prescribing doc & my therapist has told me & what the wonderful world of google has led me to believe, it generally takes up to 6 weeks to feel a mark of progress.
so bring on week 4.
The Mr. will be gone again, but i have grand plans of bringing the bean to the beach to visit my longtime BFF! (Constantine will be taking care of the cats!) although it will be sad (he won't get to witness all the fun) & stressful (he won't be there for the travel help or general 2 parents can be easier than one especially in a different place), i will be highly anticipating hanging out w/ my friend and her daughter as we vent, laugh, eat & experience fun things with our girls!
hopefully i will feel more like myself!
probably a lot of factors were involved, and the crux of it is that i just didn't feel OK just because of the medicine. in fact, in some ways, it was more depressing--- just because i feel like i'm trying EVERYTHING. (even meds, which i did not want to go to!)
it doesn't help that i had another week alone. after having The Mr. home for about 2 months with no travel, i couldn't help but get spoiled. and begin my [serious] quest for getting better. i began eating better, exercising, etc....
having him gone just throws me into a different kind of loop.
plus not having any break at all (since it's summer, i don't get my tuesday mornings).
in fact, i went to lunch today b/c The Mr. & i were tired of her whining incessantly just because we have the audacity to- um, parent- her! so i went alone. and that was the first hour i'd had to myself in three weeks. unless you count the hour when everyone slept before her birthday party. but since i was cooking & preparing..... no, i don't count that!
let's add to the fact that with The Mr. traveling, and my 2 friends having different obligations these past few weeks, has left me NO time to go to therapy.
i guess i did all this stuff while i had a lot of opportunity to, and then BAMMO! it all ended pretty abruptly.
i have grand plans for September, and am very much looking forward to my not one, but three mornings a week! and that's always aided in my depression. still, my trips & plans aren't here yet. so i manage.
so, in a nutshell, is Celexa working for me? how in the hell am i really supposed to tell?
overall, my stats lately could be compiled as:
insomnia- maybe a 3. i've been waking early or in the middle of the night (sometimes without reason) & that's been a challenge for me going back to sleep in a timely manner since the bean came along.
dry mouth- comes & goes. some days it's a 1. right at this moment it's a 4. so maybe i'll say 3
libido- has been a moot point, so it's hard to determine. i guess it's appropriately here (enough) when it needs to be. not sure if The Mr. would complain...
nausea- 1
drowsiness- gosh, this one's hard, too. it also comes and goes. but i will say it's the one that i notice more often when it's the afternoon and i just need a nap. but i dunno- would you feel that way if you had a whiny 3year old still prone to tantrums that won't nap herself? in any case, i guess i'll give this one a 3.5
it seems that most of the time if i'm involved with doing something, i can be just fine. it's when the end of rest time comes that i feel it the most. maybe it's a little longing on my part. (ha)
from what my prescribing doc & my therapist has told me & what the wonderful world of google has led me to believe, it generally takes up to 6 weeks to feel a mark of progress.
so bring on week 4.
The Mr. will be gone again, but i have grand plans of bringing the bean to the beach to visit my longtime BFF! (Constantine will be taking care of the cats!) although it will be sad (he won't get to witness all the fun) & stressful (he won't be there for the travel help or general 2 parents can be easier than one especially in a different place), i will be highly anticipating hanging out w/ my friend and her daughter as we vent, laugh, eat & experience fun things with our girls!
hopefully i will feel more like myself!
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
day 12
drowsiness: surprisingly low- a 2. this morning, though, it was a 5. and i slept relatively well.
insomnia: surprisingly low- a 1.5. i had to get the bean at i think 2am b/c of a nightmare, but otherwise seemed to sleep well & soon after. however, she woke up promptly at an early 6am to use the potty (twice, actually) so she never went back to sleep. the "rule" is not to get up before 7 but she kept going to the potty and needing my help. maybe that had to do with the high drowsy this morning.
nausea: 0
libido: moot
dry mouth: 1
so today, i'm fairly symptom-less. i'm also alone & listening to an all out tantrum at the moment. oh. you hear it too?
i will say that my good eating habits are more difficult to attend to while i have less people to cook for. plus we've been busy with swim lessons in the PM and today we had her 3yo checkup so we still haven't gotten to the store. i hope that all doesn't come back to haunt me.
in any case, i need to come back to this post to see if this will be a trend of "getting better"
but really, it usually does just come and go. maybe this is just a "go"?
let's hope not.
(oh and having her be THREE.... um! wow. that's depressing enough. if you haven't yet checked out her birthday video, i'd love for you to).
insomnia: surprisingly low- a 1.5. i had to get the bean at i think 2am b/c of a nightmare, but otherwise seemed to sleep well & soon after. however, she woke up promptly at an early 6am to use the potty (twice, actually) so she never went back to sleep. the "rule" is not to get up before 7 but she kept going to the potty and needing my help. maybe that had to do with the high drowsy this morning.
nausea: 0
libido: moot
dry mouth: 1
so today, i'm fairly symptom-less. i'm also alone & listening to an all out tantrum at the moment. oh. you hear it too?
i will say that my good eating habits are more difficult to attend to while i have less people to cook for. plus we've been busy with swim lessons in the PM and today we had her 3yo checkup so we still haven't gotten to the store. i hope that all doesn't come back to haunt me.
in any case, i need to come back to this post to see if this will be a trend of "getting better"
but really, it usually does just come and go. maybe this is just a "go"?
let's hope not.
(oh and having her be THREE.... um! wow. that's depressing enough. if you haven't yet checked out her birthday video, i'd love for you to).
Thursday, August 12, 2010
appreciation
sometimes i get so wrapped up in NOT being a "competi-mommy" that i really don't celebrate the things that make the littlebean unique, smart, funny, & adorable.
i've mentioned how amazed The Mr. & i have been at her exploding vocabulary. and we still are. people who get to hear her talk usually tell us how smart she is. (rare... you really have to spend some time around her. she's slow to warm up)
and instead of acknowledging that, i just chalk it up to a good memory. which, i do think is true. but i dunno- sometimes she does do things that really show some type of intelligence, and i almost overlook it.
gack! i'm worse than a competi-mommy.
i hope i won't become a "you're not good enough" mommy. i truly don't think that's it. but i think part of it is that i feel almost embarrassed by some of the things she's able to do so well.
there are several several things she doesn't do well, and i acknowledge those (and am trying to help her in those regards). but i think it's about time i appreciate that she really is pretty smart.
so why not allow me to share just some of the things that we think is awesome:
i've mentioned how amazed The Mr. & i have been at her exploding vocabulary. and we still are. people who get to hear her talk usually tell us how smart she is. (rare... you really have to spend some time around her. she's slow to warm up)
and instead of acknowledging that, i just chalk it up to a good memory. which, i do think is true. but i dunno- sometimes she does do things that really show some type of intelligence, and i almost overlook it.
gack! i'm worse than a competi-mommy.
i hope i won't become a "you're not good enough" mommy. i truly don't think that's it. but i think part of it is that i feel almost embarrassed by some of the things she's able to do so well.
there are several several things she doesn't do well, and i acknowledge those (and am trying to help her in those regards). but i think it's about time i appreciate that she really is pretty smart.
so why not allow me to share just some of the things that we think is awesome:
- she is beginning to identify some letters & sounds. currently, she is largely consistent with: B, O, P, J, /d/, /m/, and she's really getting the hang of E
- she speaks in long sentences (5, 6 or more words) and has success in using some kind of abstract words you wouldn't expect from many 2 year olds.
- she has been spelling her name & telling her birthday for about 4months.
- she knows most of the basic colors (and grey), a few shapes, and the numbers 8 & 2.
- today in a guessing game where there was only a sliver of a picture showing an animal, she was correctly identifying most of the animals. & most of these slivers showed less-than obvious parts of the animal. she saw not only the lion, and some "normal" animals, but also the flamingo. the seahorse. the whale.
- she does have an incredible memory, as is evident by things she'll discuss that happened in May, or after learning what something is and then immediately keeping that for her to identify in the future.... even if we don't discuss it very often after that.
- the other day, i was surprised by the fact that she sorted some objects moreso than i would've expected, considering she's never sorted anything before. she doesn't have a lot of patience for learning in a traditional way. but she didn't do the typical sort by color (as most kids will do on first exposure), or even by shape... she sorted by size of shape. that's 2 criteria at once.
i just know i'm not the mom who thinks her child is perfect, or the best, smartest, cutest, etc... in fact, The Mr. & i ask each other all the time, is she really as cute as we think she is? or do we have those typical parent blinders on? because, come on- we've all seen someone's unfortunate-looking kid only to hear the parent say, "isn't he the cutest!?!" kinda like that seinfeld episode.
so, can other 2 year olds do what she does? sure! of course. but knowing how she is, and how i've seen some of her thought processes work (or not work) in the past, i see that she really is getting the hang of some things. and i oughtta give her credit.
because she really is pretty incredible sometimes. and i need to do better.
Saturday, July 10, 2010
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