it is way too early in the AM for me to be blogging about Celexa!
i am not sure if i have stumbled upon a new symptom or not, but this has happened twice now in the past week or 2; what i can only describe as 'being aware of my heartbeat'.
oh, and by the way, i'm like queen of oddball symptoms that lead to nothing.
i'll get strange sensations/pains in strange places sometimes that go away without any further cause for worry. some research thinks that's part of depression.
i have no idea.
this is akin to having your heart race. only, the first time it happened recently, i woke The Mr. to ask him if my heart was indeed racing. he used the only stethoscope that he has available to him at 3am and put his ear to my chest. (not as sexy as that sounds- ha)
then he drummed for me what he could hear. and it all seemed just perfectly fine.
one might suggest that it's anxiety.
however, i assume (and believe w/ any anxiety i've had in the past) that anxiety usually comes with angst.
the first time it happened, there was no real catalyst that i figured that night.
tonight it began with yiminy (our cat). i woke up to hearing doh (our other cat) growling & cowering b/c yim was pinning her down.
anytime i'm startled awake, i feel my heart race. isn't that adrenaline?
however, even 1/2 hour later it didn't subside. usually it would have by now.
there is no pain involved. and truly no angst. i'm thinking no thoughts i don't normally think sometimes. thoughts i shouldn't, stupid memories, things to do.
and though that may seem like anxiety, in the past when i've felt anxious, there was an underlying reason or a bigger feel of panic. my mind truly isn't the cause right now.
the only "cure" i've used these 2 times have been to sit upright & read or blog to take my mind off of it. purge whatever thoughts and wait for sleep to come back to me.
The Mr. will not be happy when he reads this. but i didn't want to call... there's nothing to be done.
i'll mention it to my doctor and know that like most of my oddball things in the past, nothing will come of it.
as long as i'm here:
insomnia- well, i didn't try very long so i won't tip the scale, but i'll call this one a 4.
dry mouth- 3
libido- moot
nausea- 1
drowsiness- 1.5, though of course tomorrow that will rise.
the good news: my heart has returned to normal.
the bad news: i just took a 7 minute break dealing with a 3yo potty break (yay for her!)
so now that i've been vertical and mumbly-vocal, my insomnia will not pass so easily.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Saturday, July 23, 2011
3 weeks plus
so this past week was/is hard for me.
probably a lot of factors were involved, and the crux of it is that i just didn't feel OK just because of the medicine. in fact, in some ways, it was more depressing--- just because i feel like i'm trying EVERYTHING. (even meds, which i did not want to go to!)
it doesn't help that i had another week alone. after having The Mr. home for about 2 months with no travel, i couldn't help but get spoiled. and begin my [serious] quest for getting better. i began eating better, exercising, etc....
having him gone just throws me into a different kind of loop.
plus not having any break at all (since it's summer, i don't get my tuesday mornings).
in fact, i went to lunch today b/c The Mr. & i were tired of her whining incessantly just because we have the audacity to- um, parent- her! so i went alone. and that was the first hour i'd had to myself in three weeks. unless you count the hour when everyone slept before her birthday party. but since i was cooking & preparing..... no, i don't count that!
let's add to the fact that with The Mr. traveling, and my 2 friends having different obligations these past few weeks, has left me NO time to go to therapy.
i guess i did all this stuff while i had a lot of opportunity to, and then BAMMO! it all ended pretty abruptly.
i have grand plans for September, and am very much looking forward to my not one, but three mornings a week! and that's always aided in my depression. still, my trips & plans aren't here yet. so i manage.
so, in a nutshell, is Celexa working for me? how in the hell am i really supposed to tell?
overall, my stats lately could be compiled as:
insomnia- maybe a 3. i've been waking early or in the middle of the night (sometimes without reason) & that's been a challenge for me going back to sleep in a timely manner since the bean came along.
dry mouth- comes & goes. some days it's a 1. right at this moment it's a 4. so maybe i'll say 3
libido- has been a moot point, so it's hard to determine. i guess it's appropriately here (enough) when it needs to be. not sure if The Mr. would complain...
nausea- 1
drowsiness- gosh, this one's hard, too. it also comes and goes. but i will say it's the one that i notice more often when it's the afternoon and i just need a nap. but i dunno- would you feel that way if you had a whiny 3year old still prone to tantrums that won't nap herself? in any case, i guess i'll give this one a 3.5
it seems that most of the time if i'm involved with doing something, i can be just fine. it's when the end of rest time comes that i feel it the most. maybe it's a little longing on my part. (ha)
from what my prescribing doc & my therapist has told me & what the wonderful world of google has led me to believe, it generally takes up to 6 weeks to feel a mark of progress.
so bring on week 4.
The Mr. will be gone again, but i have grand plans of bringing the bean to the beach to visit my longtime BFF! (Constantine will be taking care of the cats!) although it will be sad (he won't get to witness all the fun) & stressful (he won't be there for the travel help or general 2 parents can be easier than one especially in a different place), i will be highly anticipating hanging out w/ my friend and her daughter as we vent, laugh, eat & experience fun things with our girls!
hopefully i will feel more like myself!
probably a lot of factors were involved, and the crux of it is that i just didn't feel OK just because of the medicine. in fact, in some ways, it was more depressing--- just because i feel like i'm trying EVERYTHING. (even meds, which i did not want to go to!)
it doesn't help that i had another week alone. after having The Mr. home for about 2 months with no travel, i couldn't help but get spoiled. and begin my [serious] quest for getting better. i began eating better, exercising, etc....
having him gone just throws me into a different kind of loop.
plus not having any break at all (since it's summer, i don't get my tuesday mornings).
in fact, i went to lunch today b/c The Mr. & i were tired of her whining incessantly just because we have the audacity to- um, parent- her! so i went alone. and that was the first hour i'd had to myself in three weeks. unless you count the hour when everyone slept before her birthday party. but since i was cooking & preparing..... no, i don't count that!
let's add to the fact that with The Mr. traveling, and my 2 friends having different obligations these past few weeks, has left me NO time to go to therapy.
i guess i did all this stuff while i had a lot of opportunity to, and then BAMMO! it all ended pretty abruptly.
i have grand plans for September, and am very much looking forward to my not one, but three mornings a week! and that's always aided in my depression. still, my trips & plans aren't here yet. so i manage.
so, in a nutshell, is Celexa working for me? how in the hell am i really supposed to tell?
overall, my stats lately could be compiled as:
insomnia- maybe a 3. i've been waking early or in the middle of the night (sometimes without reason) & that's been a challenge for me going back to sleep in a timely manner since the bean came along.
dry mouth- comes & goes. some days it's a 1. right at this moment it's a 4. so maybe i'll say 3
libido- has been a moot point, so it's hard to determine. i guess it's appropriately here (enough) when it needs to be. not sure if The Mr. would complain...
nausea- 1
drowsiness- gosh, this one's hard, too. it also comes and goes. but i will say it's the one that i notice more often when it's the afternoon and i just need a nap. but i dunno- would you feel that way if you had a whiny 3year old still prone to tantrums that won't nap herself? in any case, i guess i'll give this one a 3.5
it seems that most of the time if i'm involved with doing something, i can be just fine. it's when the end of rest time comes that i feel it the most. maybe it's a little longing on my part. (ha)
from what my prescribing doc & my therapist has told me & what the wonderful world of google has led me to believe, it generally takes up to 6 weeks to feel a mark of progress.
so bring on week 4.
The Mr. will be gone again, but i have grand plans of bringing the bean to the beach to visit my longtime BFF! (Constantine will be taking care of the cats!) although it will be sad (he won't get to witness all the fun) & stressful (he won't be there for the travel help or general 2 parents can be easier than one especially in a different place), i will be highly anticipating hanging out w/ my friend and her daughter as we vent, laugh, eat & experience fun things with our girls!
hopefully i will feel more like myself!
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
so far
well, it's day 19. and i just haven't really had a chance to write.
and honestly, even now, i'm not going to put in the effort originally planned for.
overall these last few days, drowsiness has probably been my biggest side-effect. never reaching 5 status, but that's what i've noticed. i've actually noticed it more at night (go figure) and this past weekend, i never slept very well. so by the end of the day, i was bound to be drowsy. whether or not celexa has anything to do with it, i'll never know.
i wouldn't say i've been troubled with insomnia, per se. i've gone to sleep easily. but have woken up for one reason or another too early and had to move downstairs to go back to sleep; never having slept very well afterwards.
the past two nights, i've had bouts of vivid dreams. that is not uncommon for me. but on these days--- nothing terrible like some of my nightmares, but just fast-paced/never feeling rested. bizarre dreams that take up much of the night.
i will say that so far there's been no "cure" for me with these meds. which, i guess is somewhat good if you think about it, because now i know that my good days of the past few weeks were just my normal fluctuations; and not necessarily the meds. tho i wish i could say for certain b/c something needs to change.
today's not a good day, though.
i've noticed i still feel whatever it is i feel. i still have horrible thoughts (often; & many times upon my first thoughts of waking), but the 2 weeks or so i've had no trouble just pushing them away. things have been enjoyable with the scale & The Mr. plus i have made some plans for the near future. looking forward to excitement has ALWAYS helped me with my depression! so all that was always bound to help my moods anyway. and today, even though the scale is still OK; The Mr. is away [Constantine, the key is in the usual place....] and i find myself reverting back to some of my moods & crappy thoughts.
some of which i can completely understand. some of which i'm just damn tired of.
i hope this won't continue. i need something to change.
and honestly, even now, i'm not going to put in the effort originally planned for.
overall these last few days, drowsiness has probably been my biggest side-effect. never reaching 5 status, but that's what i've noticed. i've actually noticed it more at night (go figure) and this past weekend, i never slept very well. so by the end of the day, i was bound to be drowsy. whether or not celexa has anything to do with it, i'll never know.
i wouldn't say i've been troubled with insomnia, per se. i've gone to sleep easily. but have woken up for one reason or another too early and had to move downstairs to go back to sleep; never having slept very well afterwards.
the past two nights, i've had bouts of vivid dreams. that is not uncommon for me. but on these days--- nothing terrible like some of my nightmares, but just fast-paced/never feeling rested. bizarre dreams that take up much of the night.
i will say that so far there's been no "cure" for me with these meds. which, i guess is somewhat good if you think about it, because now i know that my good days of the past few weeks were just my normal fluctuations; and not necessarily the meds. tho i wish i could say for certain b/c something needs to change.
today's not a good day, though.
i've noticed i still feel whatever it is i feel. i still have horrible thoughts (often; & many times upon my first thoughts of waking), but the 2 weeks or so i've had no trouble just pushing them away. things have been enjoyable with the scale & The Mr. plus i have made some plans for the near future. looking forward to excitement has ALWAYS helped me with my depression! so all that was always bound to help my moods anyway. and today, even though the scale is still OK; The Mr. is away [Constantine, the key is in the usual place....] and i find myself reverting back to some of my moods & crappy thoughts.
some of which i can completely understand. some of which i'm just damn tired of.
i hope this won't continue. i need something to change.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
day 14
i intended to write a "better" post considering i'm 2 weeks in. but i can't really muster my thoughts right now.
i know, i know.... you're waiting with bated breath.
as if.
still, this is really for me to document for my next month's checkup. it'd be nice to know i had some thoughts other than stats to share.
hopefully i'll think with more clarity this weekend.
it's been a loooong week.
drowsiness: 2 because i'm averaging out a 1 in the day and a 3 in the evening.
insomnia: 0. i actually got the best sleep i'd had in WEEKS last night. (pre-celexa as well)
dry mouth: 1- but is it a good sign that i have literally only had one glass of milk & a half glass of water after i sweated it out at the park to drink today so far? maybe it's also worth mentioning that my appetite has been less this week. The Mr. being gone may have had something to do with that; but then, sometimes when he's traveled, i'd had voracious appetites. hmmm
libido: 2.5- middle of the road.
nausea: 1- i've actually had so little to eat today; but i will say after the 5 teddy grahams i had, i felt a little nauseous.
i know, i know.... you're waiting with bated breath.
as if.
still, this is really for me to document for my next month's checkup. it'd be nice to know i had some thoughts other than stats to share.
hopefully i'll think with more clarity this weekend.
it's been a loooong week.
drowsiness: 2 because i'm averaging out a 1 in the day and a 3 in the evening.
insomnia: 0. i actually got the best sleep i'd had in WEEKS last night. (pre-celexa as well)
dry mouth: 1- but is it a good sign that i have literally only had one glass of milk & a half glass of water after i sweated it out at the park to drink today so far? maybe it's also worth mentioning that my appetite has been less this week. The Mr. being gone may have had something to do with that; but then, sometimes when he's traveled, i'd had voracious appetites. hmmm
libido: 2.5- middle of the road.
nausea: 1- i've actually had so little to eat today; but i will say after the 5 teddy grahams i had, i felt a little nauseous.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
day 12
drowsiness: surprisingly low- a 2. this morning, though, it was a 5. and i slept relatively well.
insomnia: surprisingly low- a 1.5. i had to get the bean at i think 2am b/c of a nightmare, but otherwise seemed to sleep well & soon after. however, she woke up promptly at an early 6am to use the potty (twice, actually) so she never went back to sleep. the "rule" is not to get up before 7 but she kept going to the potty and needing my help. maybe that had to do with the high drowsy this morning.
nausea: 0
libido: moot
dry mouth: 1
so today, i'm fairly symptom-less. i'm also alone & listening to an all out tantrum at the moment. oh. you hear it too?
i will say that my good eating habits are more difficult to attend to while i have less people to cook for. plus we've been busy with swim lessons in the PM and today we had her 3yo checkup so we still haven't gotten to the store. i hope that all doesn't come back to haunt me.
in any case, i need to come back to this post to see if this will be a trend of "getting better"
but really, it usually does just come and go. maybe this is just a "go"?
let's hope not.
(oh and having her be THREE.... um! wow. that's depressing enough. if you haven't yet checked out her birthday video, i'd love for you to).
insomnia: surprisingly low- a 1.5. i had to get the bean at i think 2am b/c of a nightmare, but otherwise seemed to sleep well & soon after. however, she woke up promptly at an early 6am to use the potty (twice, actually) so she never went back to sleep. the "rule" is not to get up before 7 but she kept going to the potty and needing my help. maybe that had to do with the high drowsy this morning.
nausea: 0
libido: moot
dry mouth: 1
so today, i'm fairly symptom-less. i'm also alone & listening to an all out tantrum at the moment. oh. you hear it too?
i will say that my good eating habits are more difficult to attend to while i have less people to cook for. plus we've been busy with swim lessons in the PM and today we had her 3yo checkup so we still haven't gotten to the store. i hope that all doesn't come back to haunt me.
in any case, i need to come back to this post to see if this will be a trend of "getting better"
but really, it usually does just come and go. maybe this is just a "go"?
let's hope not.
(oh and having her be THREE.... um! wow. that's depressing enough. if you haven't yet checked out her birthday video, i'd love for you to).
Monday, July 11, 2011
day 11
drowsiness: 3.5 which isn't that great because it zaps my energy to want to exercise. being drowsy makes me feel more lazy which increases my depression. this is a nice catch-22 i got.
libido: moot
nausea: frustrating. i don't know what number to put. b/c generally i'm not at all (0) but then i ate something and it increased to a 2. but i'm very hungry. grrrr
dry mouth: 1
insomnia: 1.5 last night was good. i did wake up for no reason at about 2am. but slept about 30 minutes later.
libido: moot
nausea: frustrating. i don't know what number to put. b/c generally i'm not at all (0) but then i ate something and it increased to a 2. but i'm very hungry. grrrr
dry mouth: 1
insomnia: 1.5 last night was good. i did wake up for no reason at about 2am. but slept about 30 minutes later.
Sunday, July 10, 2011
day 10
drowsiness: 4.5 was it last night's first full pill of Celexa, or the fact that i skipped lunch, sat in the sun & drank a woodchuck after a big, fun, tiring weekend?
libido: 3.5 The Mr. & i have really enjoyed this weekend, and i have received some very nice affections.
insomnia: 2.5 i have been waking & feeling less-than-rested; however i have gone back to sleep each time.
nausea: before 10 minutes ago, i'd have said 1. now, inexplicably, it is a 2.
dry mouth: 1.5
libido: 3.5 The Mr. & i have really enjoyed this weekend, and i have received some very nice affections.
insomnia: 2.5 i have been waking & feeling less-than-rested; however i have gone back to sleep each time.
nausea: before 10 minutes ago, i'd have said 1. now, inexplicably, it is a 2.
dry mouth: 1.5
Thursday, July 7, 2011
day 7
just a quick check-in. again--- this is really for my record of being on Celexa. so when i go to the doctor in a month, i'll have an idea of it "working" or not.
drowsiness- 3.5; although i spent a lot of today sneezing my head off (unrelated) and that usually ups my tired.
insomnia- 2.5. i will say that last night was probably the first night in a really long time where when i was awake for an hour & a half, i was rested and not agitated at all my thoughts of to-do's, depression, problems, etc that is common for insomnia. so, yes, i was awake. but it wasn't horrible when i woke up for real this morning. [the bean also had another tough night. methinks she's really excited for her birthday coming! The Mr. was awesome again at taking care of her!]
libido- 1 (moot point, though)
dry mouth- 2.5
nausea- 2 at times. and generally not in the mood for much food until dinner where The Mr. grilled our chicken to perfection.
sorry for all the boring. more to come soon. let me just get the first week of the pill, activities, guests & general birthday-ness out of the way where i can develop some semblance of thoughts on an actual post.
drowsiness- 3.5; although i spent a lot of today sneezing my head off (unrelated) and that usually ups my tired.
insomnia- 2.5. i will say that last night was probably the first night in a really long time where when i was awake for an hour & a half, i was rested and not agitated at all my thoughts of to-do's, depression, problems, etc that is common for insomnia. so, yes, i was awake. but it wasn't horrible when i woke up for real this morning. [the bean also had another tough night. methinks she's really excited for her birthday coming! The Mr. was awesome again at taking care of her!]
libido- 1 (moot point, though)
dry mouth- 2.5
nausea- 2 at times. and generally not in the mood for much food until dinner where The Mr. grilled our chicken to perfection.
sorry for all the boring. more to come soon. let me just get the first week of the pill, activities, guests & general birthday-ness out of the way where i can develop some semblance of thoughts on an actual post.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
day 6
i'm still in the half-pill stage.
actually, my first whole pill will be on the bean's THIRD birthday.
that right there is enough to send me into depression-oblivion!
wow.
anyway, i'm nervous for taking the whole thing b/c if i (may) already be affected by insomnia & drowsy, The Mr. is traveling that week for work.
(oh, hi--- my one reader. now you know he'll be gone. doubtful this is read by anyone else, but shall anyone happen upon this post, let me assure you that though The Mr. will be gone, my hulking lover Constantine [he will crush you!] will be coming back from his Mr. Heavyweight Championship on Sunday to keep me company of course)
with the few half-pills under my belt, i'm seeing/feeling no big progress. of course, i didn't expect anything different.
but last night i felt the same way i feel many times when i'm just disconnected. i went to bed agitated. of course i realize that the pill isn't going to cure all my woes in life.
it just sucks when i really think i'm doing about all i can do here, and still things (without warning) sometimes go in just the same way.
arrrghhh
ok. so
insomnia- 1. actually, wasn't that bad, considering my agitated state. i did wake up a little early, but nothing insane. 6am can be considered normal for non-lazy people.
drowsy- 2
dry mouth- 2
nausea- 1.5
libido- 0 (moot point right now)
actually, my first whole pill will be on the bean's THIRD birthday.
that right there is enough to send me into depression-oblivion!
wow.
anyway, i'm nervous for taking the whole thing b/c if i (may) already be affected by insomnia & drowsy, The Mr. is traveling that week for work.
(oh, hi--- my one reader. now you know he'll be gone. doubtful this is read by anyone else, but shall anyone happen upon this post, let me assure you that though The Mr. will be gone, my hulking lover Constantine [he will crush you!] will be coming back from his Mr. Heavyweight Championship on Sunday to keep me company of course)
with the few half-pills under my belt, i'm seeing/feeling no big progress. of course, i didn't expect anything different.
but last night i felt the same way i feel many times when i'm just disconnected. i went to bed agitated. of course i realize that the pill isn't going to cure all my woes in life.
it just sucks when i really think i'm doing about all i can do here, and still things (without warning) sometimes go in just the same way.
arrrghhh
ok. so
insomnia- 1. actually, wasn't that bad, considering my agitated state. i did wake up a little early, but nothing insane. 6am can be considered normal for non-lazy people.
drowsy- 2
dry mouth- 2
nausea- 1.5
libido- 0 (moot point right now)
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
day 5
today's been a good day (so far). the bean and i went to the library, a store, & lunch.
after lunch, she excitedly said, "thank you for having lunch with me!"
those manners & good spirits do a lot to melt my heart!
insomnia- 1.5 .... even surprising that i heard her cry 3x (unusual tough night for her! she actually ended up wetting the bed. The Mr. was awesome!!) ---i was able to go back to sleep rather easily. that hasn't happened in awhile.
drowsiness- 2... i'm feeling a little tired anyway. medicine? the fact that i just read 4 stories non-stop? who knows.
dry mouth- 1
nausea- 1
after lunch, she excitedly said, "thank you for having lunch with me!"
those manners & good spirits do a lot to melt my heart!
insomnia- 1.5 .... even surprising that i heard her cry 3x (unusual tough night for her! she actually ended up wetting the bed. The Mr. was awesome!!) ---i was able to go back to sleep rather easily. that hasn't happened in awhile.
drowsiness- 2... i'm feeling a little tired anyway. medicine? the fact that i just read 4 stories non-stop? who knows.
dry mouth- 1
nausea- 1
Monday, July 4, 2011
day 4
drowsiness- 2.5 (see insominia from yesterday--- i got about 4 hours of sleep)
insomnia-
nausea- 1.5 (at times). was that just a general i feel crappy b/c of the bad nite feel?
dry mouth- 1
libido- 2. probly could be higher if i weren't as zapped.
i will say i had a semi-persistent headache of sorts today. at the base of my neck, as if i needed something to hold & relax my head. pills or crap-nite?
ok... i left insomnia open b/c i keep getting myself confused. since i take my pill in the evening, i'm kinda a day behind in my reporting. but it's hard for me to keep up. so i think i'll see where this gets me, because it is actually day 4 today on the 4th.
hope yours was HAPPY!
we enjoyed some time at the pool, and as i type this i'm listening to a wonderful summer storm.
nice.
insomnia-
nausea- 1.5 (at times). was that just a general i feel crappy b/c of the bad nite feel?
dry mouth- 1
libido- 2. probly could be higher if i weren't as zapped.
i will say i had a semi-persistent headache of sorts today. at the base of my neck, as if i needed something to hold & relax my head. pills or crap-nite?
ok... i left insomnia open b/c i keep getting myself confused. since i take my pill in the evening, i'm kinda a day behind in my reporting. but it's hard for me to keep up. so i think i'll see where this gets me, because it is actually day 4 today on the 4th.
hope yours was HAPPY!
we enjoyed some time at the pool, and as i type this i'm listening to a wonderful summer storm.
nice.
day 3
1st half of pill #2
drowsiness- 1
insomnia- 3.5. was that the pill or the GD dogs barking next door at 3am for 15 minutes. then again 20 minutes later for another good 10 minutes. then the storm that rolled through (and only near us, it seemed) ??
nausea- 0 in general. 2 after eating salmon for the first time. (?)
libido- 2.75. i'm starting to see some progress on the scale, so i'm more willing here. i made a pass or two at The Mr.
dry mouth- 1.5
drowsiness- 1
insomnia- 3.5. was that the pill or the GD dogs barking next door at 3am for 15 minutes. then again 20 minutes later for another good 10 minutes. then the storm that rolled through (and only near us, it seemed) ??
nausea- 0 in general. 2 after eating salmon for the first time. (?)
libido- 2.75. i'm starting to see some progress on the scale, so i'm more willing here. i made a pass or two at The Mr.
dry mouth- 1.5
Sunday, July 3, 2011
day 2
second half of first pill:
insomnia- 2.5. took a while to go to sleep even though i exercised for an hour and a half on top of an early wake-up day. once i slept, i woke up a few times, but was able to go to sleep fine.
drowsiness- 1.5 (see: exercise)
dry mouth- 1
nausea- 1 (or 0)
libido- 1 (see: exhaustion!)
insomnia- 2.5. took a while to go to sleep even though i exercised for an hour and a half on top of an early wake-up day. once i slept, i woke up a few times, but was able to go to sleep fine.
drowsiness- 1.5 (see: exercise)
dry mouth- 1
nausea- 1 (or 0)
libido- 1 (see: exhaustion!)
Saturday, July 2, 2011
about day 1
well, the day i took the first half of my pill (yesterday) was literally the most stressful/frustrating day i'd had in weeks. maybe even months.
so that sucked.
which makes it hard to analyze, but i will anyway.
to be clear, it was a stressful day--- not necessarily a "depressing" day.
[maybe one day i'll post a rant on the window guys that were here that caused most of the problems]
as for my data for progress... (on a scale of 1-5)
dry mouth- 1.5
nausea- 1.5 (tho i could've just been too full from dinner; especially since i've been watching what i've been eating, and it was not "healthy")
insomnia- 1.5 though i didn't have trouble going to sleep, i did wake up too early. but i will say i woke up at about 3 or 4am and was able to go back to sleep (first time in days!)
libido- 0. but that was a moot point considering the hellish day we ended up dealing with.
drowsiness- 2 (again- hellish day, up early)
so that sucked.
which makes it hard to analyze, but i will anyway.
to be clear, it was a stressful day--- not necessarily a "depressing" day.
[maybe one day i'll post a rant on the window guys that were here that caused most of the problems]
as for my data for progress... (on a scale of 1-5)
dry mouth- 1.5
nausea- 1.5 (tho i could've just been too full from dinner; especially since i've been watching what i've been eating, and it was not "healthy")
insomnia- 1.5 though i didn't have trouble going to sleep, i did wake up too early. but i will say i woke up at about 3 or 4am and was able to go back to sleep (first time in days!)
libido- 0. but that was a moot point considering the hellish day we ended up dealing with.
drowsiness- 2 (again- hellish day, up early)
Friday, July 1, 2011
side effects
...more on my journey with depression medication:
as with any drug, there are many side effects associated with Celexa.
some of the more common ones are:
-decreased libido
-insomnia
-dry mouth
-nausea
-drowsiness
so, here's my thoughts on these 5 symptoms along with more proof that i'm skeptical.
as of yet, being unmedicated, i don't typically have dry mouth (but occasionally i just NEEEED a glass of water) nor nausea.
insomnia hits me every so often, and in the past few weeks a little more often than i'd like. it's more that i wake up in the middle of the night and take no less than 2 hours to fall back asleep.
because of said insomnia, i tend to be drowsy at certain parts of the day.
libido? well, that's a little trickier to answer.
i guess i have low-moderate libido anyway. but that generally stems from low self-esteem. (or see: tired)
if i know The Mr. is interested, it's not difficult at all for me to quickly change my libido. but as far as my initiation of things..... that fluctuates (and has been less and less lately with my self-esteem and frustrations involving that)
also realize that depression itself is usually a culprit of low libido and insomnia. as well as weight gain. (the meds may do that one as well).
so......... seriously? i can't wait to find out if this is gonna work for me. i can't for the life of me understand how i will know one way or the other!
day minus one-pre pill- on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the most:
insomnia/poor sleep quality last night: 4
libido in general the past few days: 2.5
dry mouth: 1.5
nausea: 1 (0 if that were a choice)
drowsiness: 3.5 (see last night's insomnia)
this evening i will be taking the first half of the first pill.
bring it!
as with any drug, there are many side effects associated with Celexa.
some of the more common ones are:
-decreased libido
-insomnia
-dry mouth
-nausea
-drowsiness
so, here's my thoughts on these 5 symptoms along with more proof that i'm skeptical.
as of yet, being unmedicated, i don't typically have dry mouth (but occasionally i just NEEEED a glass of water) nor nausea.
insomnia hits me every so often, and in the past few weeks a little more often than i'd like. it's more that i wake up in the middle of the night and take no less than 2 hours to fall back asleep.
because of said insomnia, i tend to be drowsy at certain parts of the day.
libido? well, that's a little trickier to answer.
i guess i have low-moderate libido anyway. but that generally stems from low self-esteem. (or see: tired)
if i know The Mr. is interested, it's not difficult at all for me to quickly change my libido. but as far as my initiation of things..... that fluctuates (and has been less and less lately with my self-esteem and frustrations involving that)
also realize that depression itself is usually a culprit of low libido and insomnia. as well as weight gain. (the meds may do that one as well).
so......... seriously? i can't wait to find out if this is gonna work for me. i can't for the life of me understand how i will know one way or the other!
day minus one-pre pill- on a scale of 1-5, 5 being the most:
insomnia/poor sleep quality last night: 4
libido in general the past few days: 2.5
dry mouth: 1.5
nausea: 1 (0 if that were a choice)
drowsiness: 3.5 (see last night's insomnia)
this evening i will be taking the first half of the first pill.
bring it!
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