Tuesday, January 8, 2013

no '13 list

so i looked at my archives and found my lists i made last year about my accomplishments/goals.

i will not be making a list for 2013.  which is a shame, since 13 is my number.
but looking at those lists just depressed me.  again.

i can't even fathom what i would do in '13; and i see how much i changed/failed for '12!


also, i just looked at my archives and see that i didn't discuss the body wraps (nothing to say/report).  and i also didn't post about the current state of my health.

the short of it is:  as usual, i'm "fine"
actually went to a good endocrynologist at the end of october.  my bloodwork came back perfect.
my cholesterol was even lower than my original number (and in the good range)--- even tho' my exercise and eating hadn't been up to par.

which leads The Mr. to conclude (and i to tend to agree) that my medication made me sick.
i still don't understand that, since i had been on it for 6months before these symptoms piled on me.

however, i'm not going to pretend that i feel just perfect even now.
in fact, as i type this, i'm fighting the urge to sleep.  
which---- this is one of the big symptoms i had to begin with way back a year ago.

my Dr. "endo" suggested that this narcoleptic feeling may be diet-based.
tho' it puzzled her b/c even tho i'm into carbs- they are usually paired with protein; which i guess theoretically would cancel out the sluggish/sleepy feeling i feel.
(which is new to me- even tho i've ALWAYS had the same diet.)

she negated the diagnosis of "Adrenal Fatigue Syndrome" that the one doctor had suggested.
and going to get answers from her was difficult, b/c by end of Oct, my symptoms were fleeting and i was more normal than jan-mar.  it's hard to diagnose severe headaches/nausea from months back, yeah?

well, i've been tracking almost everything for the past 8 days because i'm starting to feel bad again (not to the same extent, but enough that i'm tracking everything) and i know if i go to another doctor, i want more detailed info to share.
everything from my mood, to caffeine intake affecting headaches, nausea, tiredness, and my general exercise/diet combo.

i'm wondering if i should find another med to help me with my hating all of my guts, but both The Mr. & i are reluctant to start this cycle all over again.  especially considering the last "results" and how i never was convinced Celexa was totally working for me.

as The Mr. says "you already have all these odd ailments... i don't want to add a new medicine on top of that".  which is a good point.
but the other side of that?
is hating all of my guts.

so, here's to 2013. and the list/goals i'm not making.
i'm just wanting to get through it.
and if i can be happy about it, that can be a bonus.


1 comment:

Pregnantly Plump said...

I read an interesting article last week that made me think of you. I'm going to send you an email with the info. I don't know if it will help, but you might find it interesting. Hope you're feeling less tired today.